intoxicated to the RIDiculous

i smiled or did i?
i dont remember. Do i need to?..
All i remember that night was that he thought i was going to die.
So easily? HA! he wished!

even if i were shot in the head i think i would not feel the pain. I was smiling with tears filled so deep down in my eyes that i could hardly see him. Whatever he said i smiled and i said just let me be alone. ALONE means you need to sit beside me and watch me pass out :) Yes i could have been the most ridiculous person on earth that night.

The first time i discovered how easy it was to float through reality because parts in your body couldnt feel. Even if they feel, it was so absurdly insignificant that you could behave just as if you were floating through the clouds.

I decided that it was the best time to write, to talk, to make love, to sit and to listen. It was the best time to do justice and that's wanted. What he wanted would not make sense to me when i was sunk in the sun.

That sudden quest for peace,
for silence
and he kept screaming for god knows what reason,

Wonder why someone would be so scared of
losing someone they had nothing to do with?